The best

Still struggling with the idea of moving forward in my life. I thought about going to therapy because therapy works so well for the people that I see, but I cannot seem to make myself do it. I am so good and making others feel good about themselves, but I somehow do not think that the same concept applies to me. Silly me. I just cannot seem to accept when my fiance calls me "the best". He is the best and tells me that I am, not sure how two people can be the best. My family jokes around with me about how great he is, and he is, he is my rock and my rockstar, my bestfriend, you get the point. I just want to be the best person for him, myself and my upcoming family. Life is what you make it and I am determined to make it the best.

Mo ving forward

Still working on my presentation, I got a call from school, well not exactly, asked numerous times if I had all my requirements to graduate and they said yes. Well, of course I got word that they did not have some of my information. Thank goodness I save everything that pertains to school and I had all my old records. I was able to fax everything to them and all was saved until the next issue that comes up. That is all for now.

Presentation

Well, got my defense date and I am one step closer to graduation. I am almost graduating, but still do not believe it. I do not know when I will believe it, so I will keep on going as I am graduating. I am proscrating which I do not do, but I will try to work on my presentation tomorrow. Wish me luck.

Graduating

Wahoo, I am graduating, well after I present my ACP and my chair approves of it. I have been doing edits and rewrites for a long time now. I know now what the term bitter sweet is because I am excited to graduate and nervous at the same time. I still do not think it is real and I do not know when it will sink in. I picked up my cap and gown today, so it should be real. Getting married seems real to me and I am ready for that, but graduation seems to be a foreign concept to me that I will have to get used too. Thats all for today.

Divorce

Well, it is official, I am domesticated. I cooked dinner last night for my divorced parents and they both loved it. I am one of the fortunate one that my parents get a long and I can have them at the same table without any arguments. I am not sure how real this relationship is, but it still work for me. I have never cooked for my dad before so he got to see me in action. This is the first time he has been to my new home and only the second time he has met my future husband. The night was a hit and I will go on with my domesticated ways for now. Happy weekend!

Dreaming

Okay I am back. Haven't posted on here in awhile. I am about to graduate, finally and I am moving foward with the wedding plans. It seems like all my dreams are coming true, so why I am not very happy. Not sure, aren't you supposed to be happy when all of your dreams come true. I think that if you are really dreaming then it is okay, but if it is reality, then you have to realize that more things could happen to change those dreams. So, what do you do, do you stop believing in your dreams or do you keep on dreaming? Any suggestions.

Routines

Okay, still moving, and today I am getting wood floors installed to help with the allergies and because they are very nice!! My boyfriend and I keep on realizing that we do not have routines anymore, it used to be that we spent time together and then did our own thing, well each day is a new adventure and it has been difficult to adjust to the no routine lifestyle. It is not hard adjusting to him, but I am not used to asking for opinions and relying on someone for support, I like it, but it is something that I have to adjust too. I hoping one day that things will settle down, but there is none of that in site, we are doing remodeling, then its planning a wedding then having children, is this what married life is like?