expressing thoughts

I have heard from a couple of people that they enjoy reading my posts and finding out what I will say next. I really like the idea of blogging because for me, it is just about random thoughts that seem to come together in a blog. Does that make sense? I think so, it is comforting knowing that I can freely express my thoughts without getting flagged or deleted. This are my thoughts for goodness sakes, they should not be censored.

We always seem to be careful about what we say to others and how it will affect them, but in this blog, I am not offending anybody because if someone wants to read this, they will, if they want to leave a comment, they will or just pass it by. It is really just an expression of thoughts and it seems like there are way too many sensors on what we can say and what we have to say.

I find myself getting into trouble when I say what I mean. Everybody always says, "tell it to me straight" but when I do, it just doesn't seem to be true and I end up offending someone.

Oh well, that is way the cookie crumbles

Monday Mornings

Yep, it is that time again, it is Monday morning and I am wondering what makes Sunday so different than Monday. I am at the age now, where I do not sleep in on the weekends, so why is it so much harder to get up on Monday? I work in the afternoons so I do not need to get up at any certain time, but my body only sleep for so long which i guess is a good thing.

I have always had unconventional hours at the jobs that I have worked at and never really put in a 9-5 work schedule so I have not had the need to savor the weekends up to this point. For me, being in a relationship has changed almost everything about me and I think that is why Sunday and Monday are so different. My partner and I always have a great time on the weekends and we make an effort during the week, but it is not the same.

Is that it? Not sure, but it is still Monday morning and too much to think about right now!

Waking up

Well, waking up is not an easy thing to do and I had to get up at 3:30 am to make a flight at 6am. For some reason, I woke up at 3:27 am. My body just seems to know what needs to get done and it does it. I do not know how people function on little to no sleep. I was a walking asleep for the day. I am fortunate that I do not have to travel so much and that I get to sleep until I wake up on most days. Last night I went to bed at my usual time, but had trouble sleep and when I have trouble sleeping, I usual have a wierd dream. Well, it seems like all of my dreams are wierd. I dream outwards and never see myself in my dreams, and most of the time, I dream about people that I do not know or knew in the past.

It was ironic that yesterday was Halloween because I surely had a bizzare day. I will recoup today and move forward to my hope that I have a great night sleep tonight!

Eating for comfort

The weather is still chilly and I have been having too much hot choclate. What is it with the change in weather and thinking that you can change your diet? I do not ever try to diet, but I do believe in eating healthy and making yourself feel good by being healthy. Well, if you are not feeling great, do you still eat healthy to try to make yourself feel better? Does food still taste the same even when you do not enjoy it?

I hear all the time about eating for comfort and I think I understand what that means now. Does anybody else eat for comfort and is it okay to do?

Adjusting to the weather

Well, I live in Florida and for all intent and purposes, we have great weather. So why is it that it is 70 degrees, sunny and I am still inside typing away? Good weather should be enjoyed right? Does it help improve your mood? Not sure about that. The change of weather to me means allergies, asthma and just being cold. But besides that, I am not in the best of mood today and just feel like I should be because it is so nice out.

So help me out, does good weather help your mood?

Career Changes

Well, they say that you change careers 7 times in your life. I thought I found mine, but I am learning each day that you do not need to just have one career. I have been using my resources and learning all that I can in order to have as many careers as possible. Why settle for one? Who wants to settle anyways? Why should we feel bad when we get bored at work and want something different? Society tells us we should be bored and that is just life, well no way for me. I want to keep exploring different careers and somehow combine all of them into one. Who knows, it might work, sounds good anyways right???

Getting help without asking

Well, it is offical, life is back to normal this week. The trip is over and we are both back at work. I have never been on a vaction for 2 weeks before and i now know why people get so excited for a vacation. I did not realize how stressed out I was until I was able to relax for a week or two.

I have this thing inside of me, the "I am fine" button that I can always convince myself that I am okay. Well, I am not always okay and that was apparant with how my stress has come out. I know that when life gets us down, we sometimes say, WHY ME? I wish I had a good answer for that one. Life gives us what we can handle, but for me sometimes it sure gives me a lot.

I am thankful, grateful and all those other things that I can handle my days, but if left to myself, I think I would screw up all the time. It is nice to have someone watching over me and telling me what I am doing wrong because clearly I do not alway see it. I now have someone that is right there helping me EVEN when i do not want his help and I appreciate that more than anyone can ever know.

Not sure where I am going with this, but if anyone knows anything about making mistakes by themselves then that can be a start.