Thursday, January 29, 2009

Realizing life is good

So with all the stuff that happens in life, when do you take the time to realize that life is good for you? I think it is sad at least for me that I mostly do it compared to others. If I have a job is life good? For a while I thought so, but I am finally realizing what is important in life and how to determine how life is good.

Life is good when you make it good and in order to make it good you have to work on getting it better for yourself. simple, no way but the concept is simple.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009


I get asked all the time how do I change? I think that might be the hardest question to ask because how do you? Even if you want to, do you for a little while then revert back to what you know?

How does acceptance affect change? If you learn to accept your situation then does that mean you are giving up? There is so little that you can change in life so is it better just to accept? I would say some things yes and somethings no, depends. If there is something that you can do to make change occur then go for it! If it is out of your control, than acceptance is better to keep you calm.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Still stuggling with asking for help

Okay, so I am working and finally making some money, now does this make me happy? I think the things that I can do with the money makes me happy. I have a hard time asking for help and that issue has gotten me into trouble in the past so I feel as if I need to "earn my keep" not sure why I feel this, but I do and it is imbeaded in me that I need to always make my own money even though if I ask I will get help with things from the ones that love me.

When do you ask for help and when do you suck it up and stick to your guns? Guess that is why life is trial and error because you never know which one is going to work for you.

Monday, January 19, 2009


I saw a double rainbow this morning and I could see both ends. No, didn't see a pot of gold but for some reason, rainbows give me hope about the future. I have kept my promise to myself about staying optomistic and positive and because of that I am calmer than I was. I am looking out the window now about 6 hours later and it is raining. Does that make a difference when it comes to your mood? Not sure, something about rainy days that makes me want to stay inside and sunny days to go outside. Well, for the most part I am in doors so guess rainny is better.

Not really sure where this is heading, but just thought I would reflex on the rainbow I saw this morning.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

car accidents

I was driving home last night and the minute i got onto the highway the traffic was not moving. My first reaction was oh no, i'm tired and want to get home. Second and better reaction was, it is okay at least I am going home in one peace.

I always try to remember that the people in the accidents are the ones with the awful days and not the ones waiting in the cars, now if all of us can remember that and learn how to appreciate what we have instead of being upset because we are stuck in traffic for a half an hour.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

2009 is my year

I was told recently that 2009 was going to be my year. I hope so, but I do not know what that really means? I am starting a new job today and one thing that I have learned and need to keep on relearning is that when you are in a stressful situation, you do not realize it until you get out of it.

How many people finally leave a job or a relationship only to realize afterwards how bad it was for them? Not sure how we can change that so we don't abuse ourselves so much.

I am hoping that 2009 is my year and so far so good. I believe it cannot be worse than last year.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Getting used to something

So, how long does it take to get used to something new? I was told that it takes 2 weeks? yeah right, there are things that take a minute and then there are things that you never get used too. How do you get used to the hard things? I see people that struggle with change, basically everybody, who likes change anyways? I am trying to change into someone that I was a couple of years ago and I have always preached that you can never go back. Guess I have to listen to myself and learn how to reinvent myself. First step is getting used to the new me and liking her for all of her greatness and all of her faults. Yeah, just started talking in the third person.

Life is way too short to spend my time being upset and too much of it lately has been that, so i am making an effort today to get used to change and go with the flow. sounds good right?

Monday, January 5, 2009

What does a girl have to write to get a following?

Hey there,
so i start blogging and think that i write witty comments, but no followers. hmm what needs to be done to start a conversation? Well, a real conversation one person starts then the other has to follow, if nobody follows then it is not considered conversation. I guess blogging is the same. I do enjoy this posts and it has become a relaxing diary for me if anything of that, but i wish one day somone would just say hello!

Saturday, January 3, 2009

2009 so far

Okay, I made it to 2009, good riddenness to 2008 and hello to 2009. How do you know if your problems will follow you into the new year? Just because the date changes, doesn't mean that your life changes, but then why do I feel like I have fresh start and a new outlook on life. Does anyone else feel this way? Is it the idea of a new start or is it actually possible?