Friday, December 21, 2007


Okay, had an allright night last night, it was good to be home and with my man, he was so excited to see me and worked really hard to make the place allergic free. I did not want to disappoint him, but i did have alittle trouble breathing, but i lived, who else does things for the people that we love!

Thursday, December 20, 2007

Letting go!

Okay going back to my "house" tonight, and i feel good about it, it is funny how at one point you can care so much about something and then you meet someone and your feelings change. I used to love my apartment very much and would never think about letting it go, well now i feel like it is already in the past. I realized that my home is where my family is and that is all that matters. Going home and feeling good about it, take care everyone

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Moving backwards

well last night i stayed at my old place and it was great sleeping in my own bed. I am going to move my bed to my new home, and i will need to learn that that i cannot run back to my old place anytime i feel like it(hopefully it will be rented soon). I was not trying to get away from my boyfriend, i was trying to reconnect with the warm that i felt with my place. I spent a lot of time making it warm and comfortable and I will have to spend the same amount of effort doing that with my new home, guess it just goes with the territory of joing space with the man you love.

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

reality of moving in

Well i woke up this morning and thought how nice it would be to go back to my apartment and lie in my bed, but then i looked over and saw the man of my dreams next to me and thought how could i even think that. I am having a hard time adjusting to the move and the reality that i cannot or do not want to get away from this place. I will have to work harder to make it comfortable so I can call this my home. Anyone else ever feel like they just want to get away for awhile?

Sunday, December 16, 2007

Moving in

Well, the dinner party went well, especially with it being on the first day that i officially moved in, not so sure about the mom think but it will have to be worked on, so all day yesterday, we looked for closet ideas, and we were at ikea three times, I live in Florida and the ikea just openned up, they have police directing traffic and there is a trolley in case the parking lot is full, well we went to ikea, then went to the sawgras mall, which was so crowded, then went back to ikea, went home measured the closet, then went to his friends house to borrow a pick-up truck, then went back to ikea (yes all in one day)! The best part about this whole experience is that I told my boyfriend it was always a dream to have a walk in custom built closet and he got really excited that he could build a dream of mine, do i have the best guy in the world or what, the closet is being installed now and we will see how it turns out, anyone got any building/moving stories to share?

Saturday, December 15, 2007

balancing act

Ok, so the dinner party went well, but i had an interesting conflict with my mother. My mother reallylikes my boyfriend but i am not so sure how much she likes me being with him. She is used to me being single, which i have been for a long time and all of a sudden i am living with someone ready to start my life with them. I am entering new territory here and it is exciting and scary at the same time, so i will keep everyone posted on the next step. Well the next step is going to his family's house for christmas (i had to practing saying that phrase so many times, "I am going to my boyfriend's parent's house for christmas), and then he will need to meet the rest of my family and so on, in the meantime, i need to work on this new house of mine and finding a balancing act with my family and my new life.

Thursday, December 13, 2007

Joining families

Well, i am having a get together tommorrow night of eight people, i was just planning on it being three, but we all know how these things can grow. I am excited for it will be the first dinner party with my family and my boyfriend, we are trying to combine cultures and up to this point it has been easy because it has been just us, so we will see what happens, anyone else have this going on around the holiday times, let me know

Wednesday, December 12, 2007


Well it is almost time for bed and i have a final thought for the day, How many tests should one person have in their life time? It seems like whenever i am doing okay, things are going my way, boom, something happens to put another test in my life. I was talking to someone about this and they said that their minister told them that they were close to g-d because g-d believes that they can handle everything that is coming their way, well right now, i must be close to g-d because i continue to get tested and find a way to survive, are all these tests really necessary?

Monday, December 10, 2007

support system

This is my first post to my first blog and i am excited!! I have a lot going on in my life right now and im sure that everyone else does. The question today is, how do you get through a difficult time even though you have a great support system. I am an advocate for a support system and feel that they are the best things in the world, but right now even though i have one, i know that there are some things that i need to deal with myself. My support would do anything for me, but the question is how much should they do and how much should i do?