Ready for 2009

Gosh, who else is ready for 2009? I had a discussion today about 2008 and this is the first year in a long time that I will be happily ready to put behind me. There is something about starting fresh that allows you the opportunity to move forward and upwards.

When I was in school I could do that each semester, but now that I am in the real world, I have to do it the hard way and wait a whole year to start something new. This year has taught me so much about my resolve and strenght as a person so I cannot count it as a total loss, but I am looking forward to 2009. I think it is going to be a great year!!

Depression or sickness

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Was sick this past week and realized that symptoms of sickness are the same as depression. Now, I know that I do not have clinically depression in me because even though I have been tired, instead of just laying in bed, I have been pushing myself to get up and move forward. I had a horrible/great week. I actually had 3 jobs this past week while I was sick. I know kindof crazy, but it was enough to put anybody's mood into overdrive, so I have to remember that I need to give myself a break and put this past week behind me and move forward once again because that is all that I can do, keep on moving forward even if forces want to stop me.

So, I will say that I was sick and not depressed because I am moving forward and upwards.

Getting your hopes up

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Well, I start a new job today. I put into my mind how I wanted this job to be and it didn't work out the way that I wanted, boy was I disappointed. The funny thing is that I am usually okay with disappointment, but I think I just got my hopes up and then got shot down. I usually try not to get excited about anything until it comes true because I have seen so many things fall apart before they happen. Why did I get my hopes up this time? Not sure, I think I have had so much bad luck lately that I was due for something positive.

Oh well, I will try to make the best of my situation and just hope for the best, that is the only thing I can do at this point.

expressing thoughts

I have heard from a couple of people that they enjoy reading my posts and finding out what I will say next. I really like the idea of blogging because for me, it is just about random thoughts that seem to come together in a blog. Does that make sense? I think so, it is comforting knowing that I can freely express my thoughts without getting flagged or deleted. This are my thoughts for goodness sakes, they should not be censored.

We always seem to be careful about what we say to others and how it will affect them, but in this blog, I am not offending anybody because if someone wants to read this, they will, if they want to leave a comment, they will or just pass it by. It is really just an expression of thoughts and it seems like there are way too many sensors on what we can say and what we have to say.

I find myself getting into trouble when I say what I mean. Everybody always says, "tell it to me straight" but when I do, it just doesn't seem to be true and I end up offending someone.

Oh well, that is way the cookie crumbles

Monday Mornings

Yep, it is that time again, it is Monday morning and I am wondering what makes Sunday so different than Monday. I am at the age now, where I do not sleep in on the weekends, so why is it so much harder to get up on Monday? I work in the afternoons so I do not need to get up at any certain time, but my body only sleep for so long which i guess is a good thing.

I have always had unconventional hours at the jobs that I have worked at and never really put in a 9-5 work schedule so I have not had the need to savor the weekends up to this point. For me, being in a relationship has changed almost everything about me and I think that is why Sunday and Monday are so different. My partner and I always have a great time on the weekends and we make an effort during the week, but it is not the same.

Is that it? Not sure, but it is still Monday morning and too much to think about right now!

Waking up

Well, waking up is not an easy thing to do and I had to get up at 3:30 am to make a flight at 6am. For some reason, I woke up at 3:27 am. My body just seems to know what needs to get done and it does it. I do not know how people function on little to no sleep. I was a walking asleep for the day. I am fortunate that I do not have to travel so much and that I get to sleep until I wake up on most days. Last night I went to bed at my usual time, but had trouble sleep and when I have trouble sleeping, I usual have a wierd dream. Well, it seems like all of my dreams are wierd. I dream outwards and never see myself in my dreams, and most of the time, I dream about people that I do not know or knew in the past.

It was ironic that yesterday was Halloween because I surely had a bizzare day. I will recoup today and move forward to my hope that I have a great night sleep tonight!

Eating for comfort

The weather is still chilly and I have been having too much hot choclate. What is it with the change in weather and thinking that you can change your diet? I do not ever try to diet, but I do believe in eating healthy and making yourself feel good by being healthy. Well, if you are not feeling great, do you still eat healthy to try to make yourself feel better? Does food still taste the same even when you do not enjoy it?

I hear all the time about eating for comfort and I think I understand what that means now. Does anybody else eat for comfort and is it okay to do?